New Beginnings...

The Time Traveler's Wife

2010-03-28T11:35:00.000-07:00

I've watched this movie in the theater and cried when Rachel McAdams's character and the daughter were hugging each other in the bed. It got me again when I got my copy on Blu-Ray in the mail from Amazon. So weird that during the whole movie, Donovan just kept looking at me and giving me this look like he just wanted to tell me something. I love it when he just stares deep into my eyes... I know he's sincere and that's all I need in my life. He doesn't even have to say a word... I just know. :)

Mother-Daughter Bonding

2010-03-04T07:49:00.001-08:00

Kristelyee hasn't been feeling the greatest, but she still tends to play and smile through it. If she doesn't show that, then that's when I know she really isn't feeling well at all.

We were playing telephone. She kept putting Donovan's iPhone to her ear saying, "Hi?" Then she tried to hold up his phone to take a picture of herself by saying, "Cheez!" But she didn't know what button to press.

Kristelyee grabbed me and pressed her face against mine to take a picture together. :)

And as I put my iPhone in front of her face to snap a photo, she picks her nose.

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Decision

2010-03-01T18:19:00.001-08:00

Long blogs on here, short/quick blogs on Tumblr. Check it out: mama-lizzybee.tumblr.com

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Blogging from iPhone

2010-02-28T08:02:00.001-08:00

I just downloaded the BlogPress app so I could blog from my iPhone since going on Blogspot through Safari on my phone was giving me problems. We'll see how I end up liking this app. But FYI, I made a Tumblr account since the app for that to blog on has more features. Find me at mama-lizzybee.tumblr.com and stay tuned with what I decide to do with both blog sites.

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My Baby Girl... So Grown!

2010-02-18T14:20:00.000-08:00

Please slow down just a little bit for Mommy?

Valentine's/Presidents' Day Weekend

2010-02-18T11:25:00.000-08:00

On the 12th, Donovan only worked for 3 hours. He took me to watch Valentine's Day after I got off from work and it was the cutest movie! It reminded me of He's Just Not That Into You because it had an all-star cast. Right after, we walked around the mall and we got Bliss original yogurt with our faves mochi and mangoes. Then we had to go to Best Buy to pick up our iTrip that we ordered online for our iPhones. Yay! No more burning music onto cds! We can also listen to music from Pandora and iheartradio apps. Lastly, we had a late dinner at Panera Bread. Mmmm!

On the 13th, we drove over to North Bend to do some shopping. Got Kristelyee some new dunks at the Nike Outlet (I swear, this girl gets a new pair of shoes everytime we go shopping). We also bought the Pyrex set that we had been eyeing since the last time we went shopping there. I also had to buy birthday presents for 2 of Kristelyee's friends that turned 1. We had to miss their parties, since she was with her Dad that weekend. I also bought myself a new wristlet since my old one has been misplaced after moving so much. Donovan and I also tried looking for outfits for later that night, but no luck... even after going to Supermall too. We also hit up Lover's to get Teets' "Dirty 30" Birthday present. It was so busy there, but then again... we went the day BEFORE Valentine's Day. We got him some pretty useful stuff and Donovan even made me sign up for membership so I could get 10% off each visit and free gift wrapping. Gawd! Anyway, that night we hit up Club Sno at Snoqualmie Casino for Teets' Dirty 30th Birthday.

For the first time out of all the times we've gone clubbing there, there were fights breaking lose all around us. It was crazy!

Valentine's Day, we didn't wake up until almost 10 since we didn't get home until almost 3 from the club. I felt so shitty that I ended up going back to bed but waking up to a late breakfast in bed.

Right after, I went back to bed again until Donovan forced me out of bed to go to Best Buy so he could buy some Blu-Rays for us to watch that night. We ended up getting and watching The Proposal and Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs. Both really good movies.

Donovan then took me to Cold Stone Creamery and we got some ice cream and also got some Ice Cream Cookie Sandwiches in Cookie Crumb Yum for our Valentine's dessert. http://www.coldstonecreamery.com/novelties/cookies.html Then we went home and watched the movies and Donovan was going to cook some huli huli chicken for me for our Valentine's dinner, but I really wasn't feeling well and just ended up going to bed.

On Presidents' Day, Kristelyee got dropped off to us. I was so happy to have her home. We stayed in most of the day, since I still wasn't feeling well. The only time we went out was to Target to get some meds. We were going to buy her a new Ni-Hao Kai-lan doll, since the one we got her is hard and talks so much. But the Ni-Hao section just happened to be next to the Sesame Street section and she saw "Mo" (Elmo). Of course she had to point at the most expensive one! Most of them talked, so that was out of the question. But luckily we found one that didn't talk. So we were on our way, until she saw balls. They were huge! So we tried looking for smaller ones, but they were all hard. And Kristelyee started having a hit so we got her the ball. Gosh! I don't know what is up her butt lately, but she's been whining whenever she doesn't get what she wants.

All in all, it was a nice weekend even though I was and have been sick. I hope I get over this soon.

Long Weekend

2010-02-12T10:20:00.000-08:00

Donovan decided to work for only 3 hours today, just so we can go watch Valentine's Day.

Not only do we have this whole weekend together, but he also took Monday off, since he wasn't going to get Presidents' Day off from work. :)

Yay!

2010-02-02T08:37:00.000-08:00

ON FRIDAY, DON AND I FINALLY GOT OUR 3GS IPHONES. I GOT THE WHITE ONE AND HE GOT HE BLACK ONE. THE PRICE OF ACTIVATION, SERVICE AND THE PHONES ALONE CAME OUT TO BE WAY CHEAPER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE. OUR RECEIPT SAID WE SAVED $800 TOTAL! THANKS TO MY WORK DISCOUNT. PLUS WE GET A DISCOUNT EVERY BILL! SATURDAY, WE GOT OUR SCREEN PROTECTORS INSTALLED WITH A LIFETIME WARRANTY THEN GOT CASES. AND OMG, THE APPS ARE GREAT! FBING AND TWITTERING COULDN'T BE ANY EASIER THAN NOW!

Been DONE...

2010-01-11T19:21:00.000-08:00

2010 definitely started off great for me. I was given a chance to start my life over. A chance to start off fresh. I have my beautiful baby girl and a new love, a new place to call home. It doesn't get any better than this. But there's always going to be someone that I cannot kick out of my life, because we will for the rest of our lives have a connection... our daughter. I've been over the fact of what you did to me a year ago. And now, you're trying to be all nice to me, asking me if us breaking up was a loss cause. Yes, it was. If you had never walked out on me, our marriage, our daughter, our family... I would've never been able to live. I would've never been able to breathe. I would've never been able to do things on my own and experience things I never imaged doing. I would've never met Donovan. You asked me if I truly am happy with Donovan, I told you I was and asked you why does it matter to you when you're happy yourself. We should never discuss anything about each other... only of our daughter. That is the only communication I care and need to know of. Other than that, I don't need you meddling in my life, trying to find out how I'm doing, what I'm doing, etc. That's NONE of your concern anymore since the day you wanted a divorce. You don't see me calling or texting you while you're having your quality time with our daughter, no. You on the other hand... find reasons to contact me... trying to make conversation with me. Sorry, that's no longer my department. I don't seek friendship with you, nor do I seek to find someone to talk to in you. I have REAL people, REAL friends, REAL family that I can do that with. I don't need your apologies either. I've been past that. I can see past through you... ONCE A LIAR, ALWAYS A LIAR. ONCE A CHEATER, ALWAYS A CHEATER. Sorry, you can't fool me. I don't feel one bit sorry for you in the situation you're in. You put that upon yourself. Just let me be. Let me raise our daughter the way I want to when she's with me and you raise her the way you want when she's with you. Please move on with your life and stop dwelling about what you did. What's DONE is DONE. Get over it!

My Heart or My Mind? Or Both? You Be the Judge...

2009-12-23T11:22:00.000-08:00

So yesterday afternoon, Donovan and I had a pretty deep conversation. We talked about what we both want out of this relationship. Yes, we've barely been together for 2 months. Yes, we moved in together. Fast? I'm not going to lie... yes, everything seems to be moving quickly between us even though we didn't plan it that way. We actually wanted to take things slow, but things happened and Things Happen for a Reason. No, we hadn't been seeing each other prior to October 30th. That was the night we had first seen each other again since July 3rd. Even at that time, I wasn't interested. I wasn't trying to hook up with anyone I would meet for the first time... especially someone I'd meet at the club. And the whole age difference bugged me A LOT at the time. And no, we didn't move in together because I'm ~~pregnant~~. Sorry, I'm not THAT idiotic to get knocked up that quickly. I actually use my brain thank you very much! Besides, Kristelyee is more than a handful already... I don't need 2 monkeys running around just yet. I'm still trying to enjoy watching Kristelyee's 1st years. But yeah, I just had to make that clear to everyone... because I had been hearing different stories. I know it shouldn't matter what other people think, as long as God, Donovan, and I know the TRUTH, but I just wanted to state the facts.

Anyway, like I had mentioned earlier, Donovan and I did not plan for our relationship to be moving this quickly. It feels like we've been together for years. Yes, we both have kids from previous relationships and we both have accepted that. We also agreed that neither one of us could ever be #1 to each other. We both put our kids our #1 top priority. I could never ask to be someone's #1 ahead of their kid, that's just wrong. Anyone who could ask such a thing is just straight up selfish. I still have yet to meet Joshua Christian, but the way that I see Donovan interacting with Kristelyee... I can tell he's a good father, even though he doesn't get to see his son that often. We did agree that we wanted the same thing out of our relationship... we're both in it for the long run. Yes, it may be too soon, but hell... I'm not getting any younger. And I've tried playing the field, but that's just NOT who I am. Marriage and children were definitely hot topics. When will it happen? I don't know... only time will tell.

Since we've been together, I was afraid to really tell him how I felt. Not because I was afraid that he didn't feel the same way... more because I wanted to be 101% sure before I opened my mouth and spilled my heart out to him. And I've been keeping my guard up since I've been hurt. I don't want to go through the same shit I've gone through during the beginning of this year. YES, it's wrong for me to compare... but can you blame me for being cautious with my heart?!

All I know is that what I'm feeling is REAL. This past year, I feel as though I've grown as both a woman and as a mother. I've been able to look past the age difference, the looks, and all those other characteristics that people tend to look at when choosing a partner. Look at how the person treats you, cares about you, loves you, and accepts you for who you are. Don't ever try to change a person, because if you do... that's not really who they are. Follow both your heart and your mind. Not just one or the other.

So Thankful...

2009-11-26T18:51:00.000-08:00

Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone! I truly have A LOT to be THANKFUL for this year. First and foremost, I am most thankful for my beautiful baby girl Miss Kristelyee Elizabeth. Without her, I probably wouldn't have been strong enough to get through this tough year. She's the one that kept me going... she's my reason for living. Second, I'm thankful for my family... both my family and my soon-to-be ex-in-laws. My family has been very supportive through all of the stress, blood, and tears. My in-laws, they kept me as part of the family... despite what their own blood did to me. Usually blood is thicker than water, but with them... it's who's wrong and who's right. I'm thankful for my job, even though it stresses me out... having employment is a blessing nowadays and it pays the bills. And lastly, I'm thankful for the new found love in my life. Donovan has been nothing but wonderful to me. I don't ask anything of him. He does things for me, because he WANTS to. He's the reason I've been allowing my ex to take Kristelyee for overnight stays. I'm surely learning a lot from him and becoming a more understanding individual.

I'm Back!

2009-11-23T15:26:00.000-08:00

I know I haven't blogged in almost a year. My life was turned upside down the beginning of 2009 and a lot has changed. My husband of not even 2 years decided to walk out on our daughter and me to be with my then best friend. My daughter and I ended up moving in with my in-laws in the middle of March and have been living there since. In July, I started talking to someone and had a "summer fling" for a month until things started to dissipate. Things ended on a sour note due to me jumping to conclusions. Started crushing a someone new in September, only to find out he was a total douche bag and at the same time... my "summer fling" decided to reappear into my life but nothing re-sparked. For Halloween, I went out with some friends to a Halloween Ball at the club. Saw someone that I had met back in July, whom I had originally refused to give my number to. We clicked and the rest is history... Official ♥ 110809